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05.08.07 (2:44 am)   [edit]
 

[ words : castenda, chinese poetry anthology ] [ sound : the.counting.crows,  three.days.grace ]

" margery's wingspan's
all feathers and coke cans,
and TV dinners,
and letters she won't send "
~a.druitz

Still awake, I'm not really sleeping lately... I'm sleeping, but I wake up five mins after six hours have past, I've taken to staring at the ceiling again in bits of the morning.. must be too bright to sleep.. or too warm, or something...

just fatigued... tried of helping people constantly.. It means a lot to me to help out, I just think I need to take care of myself for a change, but I sincerley don't know how to do that at all.. someone else needs to drive for a while I think..

I just don't want to go back on my meds.. I want to function and not feel this way..

Just everything seems contradictory to me.. I want company but I'm tired of being around people.. I'm tired of having the same conversations over again.. I feel like I'm in some loop where I'm starting the sa me conversation with someone else, and I never really get to finish it...

*shakes head*

'good things come to those who wait' ?? well I'm wondering when my shelf-life is going to expire, while I'm waiting..

I'm fatigued from this waiting i'm doing.. how many years go by 'waiting' ?

Is there a point where giving up is the same as not looking for something..

I should be on a plane or a train writing.. so at least I'm moving while I'm waiting...

not sure what happened to my patience, but its worn rather thin by this point.

gonna crash.. see if that gets me somewhere..

+lost.laine+

climbing for the sun...
 

posted by: swanktrendz (reply)
post date: 05.15.07 (5:43 pm)

There is nothing worse than that feeling of 'limbo' (or purgatory) where one is simply waiting. For what? Who knows. I too, find myself waiting, yet I am unsure as to what I am waiting for. Enlightenment? If that's the case, I have a while longer.


posted by: lyinghere (reply)
post date: 05.16.07 (9:46 am)

Reply to: swanktrendz
yes limbo
enlightenment is near,
but I'm missing some key components I think


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