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*the age of spiritual machines: when computers exceed human intelligence~ray kurzweil

*secrets of shamanism.stevens
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lenore, monsters in my tummy
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Dead.Line 1: Spiritus Sancti
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The Witching Hour
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spawn, spiderman
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maxx
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from hell, league of extraordinary gentlemen, watchmen
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03.15.07 (2:59 am)   [edit]

[ .cccxi. : three hundred and eleven days ]

" it was the sweetness of your skin
it was the hope of all we might have been
that filled me with the hope
to wish impossible things
"
~r.smith, the.cure

two fifty-two ante meridiem..

peace seems to be the thing I'm constantly looking for.. internally, externally... elusively.. its as simple as the air we breathe.. and often times I'm reminded of that fact.. but I am constantly restless..

all my studies offer peace, but it does not come.. as robert said : I think I've reached that point, where giving up and going on, are both the same dead end to me, are both the same old song..

often I am aware of that space between greatness, insanity, & obscurity... perish or publish..  my genius-at-work sign thrown out, my brilliance stored away for winter a that's not ending..

minou asked the other day why I don't paint any more.. and after considering it ... I really have nothing to paint.. I don't have the materials, but thats just an excuse..

I used to have ideas and images I could only get out of my head by sketching it out ... but I just don't seem to have anything to say that requires a brush any more.. like I'm on extended break, and just don't feel like doing it anymore ..

as Onetti said, "I am not a writer except when I write."

and all my abillities do not mean I am constantly trying to do them.. I want to see new things, do new things in new places.. but I choose to be here,  not there...

so I choose not to paint.. seems like the same obvious conundrum to me..

+lost.laine+

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