[ .degenerate.notes. ]

all the sad things
still king
keen to this lack of splendor
in my notes we burn
finding the wind
is lacking from our sails
folded down to pack this up
wrap this up
and finish with this dying afternoon
so lazy in the blinding sun
that makes the clouds burn out
no touch finds me
in this last and famous party
that we all partake of

©Bryan McLean 4.26.05

.abomination.that.is.time.

so I've been neglecting adding my thoughts here on any regular basis what so ever.. anyways.. your dose of perception for toay...

T0DaY5 T0pIc of cancer:
"We are all Time Travellers"

As my close friend always reminds me, there is no single moment in our existance that has us stand still. We are constantly in motion, moving forward at a rate that shudders with unstoppable conundrums.. we cannot avoid this pattern. it is build into our systems of birth, decay, rebirth.. the wheel turns.

If it wasn't for my this terrible addiction to oxygen/nitrogen, that I have.. I would have passed onto more interesting pastures..

regardless, time forms in expectant bubbles around us.. its important to be aware of this.. there is a point where a decision is made and time leads us to the probable conclusion.. its easier to view in smaller bits, such as reaching out to take a sip of coffee..

but eventually you can preceive fully the outcome of a series of events.. and there is no such thing as destiny as simple as it being written down on a yellow sticky -  [although, I'm pretty convinced, I only get a footnote or two in the thesis of life]

- its important to know that all actions have meaning .. even if we cannot see them.. one kindness today, turns a new one tomorrow.. a few moments of help by many, creates a smaller amount of work for another single person..

every loss deminishes us, because, as we travel in our tribes, that loss creates one less set of opportunites for us to all share in the work.

I'm not a big fan of a institutional white Utopia  [ unless you really feel better being an AlphaBatchMale and trust in the fact that like Jesus,
Big Brother Saves... then the New World Order Awaits you... ]
but if all ppl are going to get onto the same page and create a world worth living in, its going to take a long time for everyone to shed their prejudices instead of blood.

so small things like understanding life systems, language, communication, time cycles, psychology, metaphysics, and culture will help us better understand that our place in the universe is in fact to always be asking questions and expecting the universe to give up more.

anyways.. enough ranting for one late nite..
cheers
+subtransient.laine+

finally broke down and started a shoppe of my own.. I'll add more things when I get a chance, but the shop link will be their if you ever get bored enough to check it out.. cheers kidz... +laine+

Hear the sound of the falling rain
Coming down like an Armageddon flame (Hey!)
The shame
The ones who died without a name

Hear the dogs howling out of key
To a hymn called "Faith and Misery" (Hey!)
And bleed, the company lost the war today

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday

Hear the drum pounding out of time
Another protestor has crossed the line (Hey!)
To find, the money's on the other side

Can I get another Amen? (Amen!)
There's a flag wrapped around a score of men (Hey!)
A gag, A plastic bag on a monument

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday

"The representative from California has the floor"

Zieg Heil to the president gasman
Bombs away is your punishment
Pulverize the Eiffel towers
Who criticize your government
Bang bang goes the broken glass and
Kill all the fags that don't agree
Trials by fire, setting fire
Is not a way that's meant for me
Just cause, just cause, because we're outlaws yeah!

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives

This is our lives on holiday

~gd

.a.list.of.ppl.I.need.to.meet.

dylan thomas, joseph william mallard turner, rothko, warhol [so I can kick his ass], pollock, ee cummings [to kick his ass too], eddie vedder, raine maida, james keenan maynard, neil gaiman, clive barker, poppy z brite, de lint, klimt, eistein [to say I kicked his dead ass].. ummm the list goes on..